It has made a world of difference to me when the Father showed me how He uses me in the spirit. I understood better why people sometimes reacted so strangely towards me (without me doing anything to upset them). I believe that if we all have a good understanding of how He uses each one of us, we will not take offence as much or project people’s feelings/actions toward us on our worth. I want to share my story of how God revealed my spiritual presence to me.It was early in my walk with Him (about 10 years ago) that I first started dreaming. I dreamt that I was walking from the back of a typical Country-Western house toward the front porch. It was a wooden house with a large front porch – set in the middle of a desert. There were restaurant-like tables everywhere on the porch and the desert sand. I wore a cheerfully pink-coloured polka dot dress, carrying a tray of lemonade. As I walked to the front of the house, fireballs started raining down. People scattered. I just continued walking with the lemonade – completely unfazed!I told my (spiritually mature) aunt about the dream and the Holy Spirit gave her the interpretation. Father was showing me through this dream that I am a fireball in the spirit. That I will be planted in the desert (a dry and barren wasteland; place in need of revival), that my ministry will be a public one (symbolized by the front porch and yard with restaurant tables) and that He will use me to serve His children with thirst-quenching drink in the form of the revelation and guidance His Spirit gives me.This all sounded good at the time. But then people started behaving strangely toward me and I couldn’t understand it. I was a child of the Most High – so weren’t people supposed to like me? Or at the very least just politely tolerate me? How could He show me that He was going to use me in public ministry when people seemed to shy away from me? I took this very personally and drew back for a couple of years.Then, about five years ago, I had a vision. I was walking between people – completely on fire. I didn’t make eye contact with a single person and didn’t say a word. I just looked straight ahead and kept on walking. As I walked past people, the dry patches on their bodies caught alight. They started burning. After I had this vision everything started making sense. The fact that I didn’t look at or talked to anyone, tells me that it isn’t about me…He uses me as He sees fit.I gave the Father complete authority over every part of my being the day I came to true repentance. He started training me in the area of spiritual warfare soon after, but because I was still a babe I couldn’t yet grasp what Ephesians 6:12 meant by: For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) places. I was still very much stuck in the flesh and took every attack and strange action from people very personally – when in fact it wasn’t about me at all.I received great peace from this vision. I started understanding that some people were just burning when Father decided to send them my, or me their way. From that day on I started interceding for people instead of wondering why they didn’t like me. I took the focus off myself and placed it where it should rightfully be – on His kingdom purposes.Two years ago I painted a mural at a (now) friend’s house. Her mother lived just next door and would pop in from time to time to check on the progress. She did this for a couple of days and then I didn’t see much of her anymore. I didn’t think much of it either. A couple of months later, I started writing an article and asked her if I could use her life story as one of my case studies. She agreed and we met up over a cup of coffee. She first started the conversation by apologising for how she acted. I didn’t quite understand at first but then she said that she shied away from me because she couldn’t stand to be in my presence anymore. I couldn’t really recall the next part, but she said that I would just start speaking about the spirit realm and spiritual warfare when she entered the room and it completely freaked her out. And after I went into her house the one day and gave her a word of knowledge, her head spun.She had been plagued by fear of the spirit realm for many years. Things happened in her past and she couldn’t come to terms with the fact that there is something beyond the physical realm. So when Father sent me there to paint the mural, she started burning as the Holy Spirit ignited her dry patches in the spirit. It made her flee at first, but then Father began to deal with the fear and gave her healing in this area. She journeyed with Him on this road and a couple of months later, her fear was completely dealt with.I was in awe as she told me this. It was the first time that Father allowed me to catch a glimpse into the process. We both praised Him for His goodness and continued the journey together.So in a nutshell – Father uses me as a fireball in the spirit. The definition of a fireball is: a ball filled with combustibles, intended to be thrown among enemies, and to injure by explosion, also, to set fire to their works and light them up, so that movements may be seen. I don’t have to say or do much because it is not about me. But when He sends someone may way, or me theirs, they may start backing off because it is not pleasant to burn. And when they do back off, I intercede intensely for them. Because then I know that He is doing a good work in them. I do not take it personally, so the fear of rejection doesn’t have power over me anymore. I have peace now and He can use me to run the race that He set out for me.If all of us will ask Him to reveal to us how He uses us in the spirit, we will be stronger and more productive in His Kingdom. We will not be plagued by the spirit of offence the moment someone arises against us, but instead have a good understanding as to what we should do about it.May you press into the Father today and ask Him to reveal your unique spiritual purpose. And then take it and run the race swiftly in His Kingdom!Isaiah 40:31 – But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look at, and hope in Him] will gain new strength and renew their power; they will lift up their wings [and rise up close to God] like eagles [rising toward the sun]; they will run and not become weary, they will walk and not grow tired.